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Friday, 08 January 2010

Ahhh a day off.

I tried to draw two pages with the comic book drawing. It hasnt turned out so well. Im not giving up yet though. I will try them again before I try the next book activity. I was trying to think what makes my realistic drawings and cartoons so different and I realized that it has nothing to do with the contours and the lines. It has to do with the shading and the lightness and darkness. When I draw naturally I really dont use much lines untill it comes with details, I shade untill it gets into the shape I want. All this is going to take is practice practice practice. No suprise there. Just simpiler said than done.
Yesterday I spent some time with my mom. Just need a bit of finacial advice to help Andrew and I's marrige. If me and Andrew waited and saved until we got married it would have taken years. We just up and did it. Not a lot of people understand that but it honestly doesnt matter. I get it, he gets it and all in all we love eachother and love being together.
Saw an old friend today I havnt seen in over a year. Alyson Wilson. (No relation to us though) We didnt get up to much, a cheap meal at Mcdonalds and some TV watching . It was nice to have the company thought.

Well tomorrow it looks like I will be spending alone. Andrew will be seeing an army buddy who came back from Afghanistan injured from my understanding. It will give me a chance to do some more drawing.
Im looking forward to sunday thought. Im going back to church for the first time in over 1/2 a year and making home made pyrogys. Yummy.

Wednesday, 06 January 2010

Currently
Drawing Cutting Edge Comics
By Christopher Hart
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I bought a new book today from the gift card Andrew gave me for Christmas. Completley dorky of course but a book on comic book drawing. Drawing cutting edge comis by Christopher Hart. It really like it because its not a "how to book" the authour already assumes you can draw and provides techniques to make the drawings edgier. I like how its a book about developing style instead of learning the "how to's" Ive have browsed through it and I now want to try everything. Got a cheap sketch book to that I want to use strictly for this style. But it may be hopless to keep this artist organized. If I end up falling in love with this book I want to find more by the authour.
I want to start drawing right now but I have laundry to do. Not that Im doing a very good job with it as I am still on the computer. Ok got to keep on track.
I prob should think of what want to do for tomorrows supper to. Andrew left for work today as I got home so I didnt have to make supper. And hes happy because I know for a fact he will be picking up McDonalds. Wish he would learn to make a sandwich or anything just so he would take a supper with him. Just my wierd way of trying to look out for him and I know he hates it. But today I didnt say anything at all.
Im turning into my mother more and more each day with her attitude towards the household. I guess I really am growing up. I find myself doing and saying things she would say.I remember her complaining the house work was never done and she was the only one doing it and how she wished we would just learn to put our dishes away. Even the way she handled her money I find myself become similar. I have even started using coupons. Not a bad thing but its sure now what I pictured.

I wonder if the cleaning fairy has stopped by or if she's on route to my house by chance?
A girl can always dream.

Tuesday, 05 January 2010

Well today I tried cooking a full meal. On tonights menu: Rib Eye Steak, Mashed Potatoes, and Cheese Garlic Bread. Sounds pretty good doesnt it? I thought so to. But it didnt turn out. Tried cooking the mashed potates like Dad makes them and I couldnt do it. They were not even edible. As for the steak..all the marinade burnt. I tried I can be postive and give myself that but my is it ever frusterating. Im not good at this house wife thing. I hate cleaning, I just cant get organized to keep a routine and as for cooking: E for effort. When things get done I do feel proud of acomplishments but I hate doing it. Im nothing like my Mom in this department. She always seemed to know how to get everything done with a husband, three kids and three dogs. As for me its pretty much Andrew and I (Puma takes care of herself) that I have to look after.
Speaking of Puma. She ate my headphones I got for Christmas. Just small earbuds. At first I thought she just chewed through them. Evidence today proves otherwise. Poor girl, must of hurt. She knows better but ugh just thinking about it makes me hold my stomach. Shes one wierd cat. But of course I love her.
I need a B12 shot I think. Cause wow am I irratible and simply miserable for no reason. Perhaps tomorrow I will get the chance, although for some reason I want Andrew to go with me. Maybe just because I am going to try a new place. Then after that I should be able to do it all on my own. I probably should get my name change done though as all my idea and healthcare information is all under Striker not Wilson. Another thing I should get done.
Now what to do for supper tomorrow that I wont completely ruin. Maybe Chef Boyardee may be aceptable in thhis case. At least then Andrew wont grab chips and I can still get a couple bites in me. I do have all day to think about it for the most part.
Oh and I tried tracking an old Xanga friend on Facebook. His profile hasnt been active since 06, and well either has the blog I was using then. I know his email address was from University so I dont think its active anymore. Lets see what happens and hopefully it is the right guy.
I need Andrew and Puma cuddles. Cuddled under sheets where I am safe.

Sunday, 03 January 2010

A year in review.
Wow its simply been forever since I have blogged. Life got a little interesting and kind of just stopped. Moved out of my parents house, got a new job, starting in the dating world and met my now husband.
Its a new year, new start and I was hoping to be excited, but honestly I think more than anything I am simply nervous. A lot happend in 2009:
- Jan 25th I met Andrew Wilson. After our first day we became insperable. How we really even got a second date I still have to wrap my head around. Non the less we started dating and things became serious rather fast. After our third month we knew we were both not going anywhere.
- Summer June/July We found a place to rent on the west end of Edmonton. 2 bedrooms and a den. Its rather small, we hate renting but its' in a pretty good area where we have access to everything. Andrew still had an apartment in Medicine Hat that he was paying rent on per month. He lived on the Edmonton base but for some reason kept his place back home. Him and my Dad spent a weekend packing up his things and bringing them down. As for me I was busy moving out of the room mates place wich for personal reasons I just dont want to talk about.
- Andrew came back from Medicine Hat and asked me to marry him on our back porch. Nothing romantic, he giggled his whole way through but that didnt matter when all I wanted was him.
- October Puma came into our lives. Shes our little fur baby. The vet thinks that she is part tortise/calico. We really dont know.
- Novemeber 29th we were married. Its been rocky due to money issues but we do our best to work it all out. I havent helped when I have been depressed.
Now its the start of 2010. Honestly I'm not happy. Works been so tough. Winter is slow wich means less hours. I got a pretty bad B12 defficency wich has triggered my burried depression. Andrew is out of work. He didnt resign his contract because of me but thats a different issue for another time. Its been tough with money issues and Im trying. Jelouse of Andrew being to stay home and do as he pleases while I have to work. Im hoping he gets phone calls from future employers starting Monday.
But I have had some positve ideas for 2010.
- I want to start cooking more at home. Andrew likes to snack while as for me I just rather go hungry most days.I want to start cooking with flax seed. Its suppouse to help with depression as its an Omega 3 fatty acid or something like that. And Im not about to start eating fish.
- Art! I got a drafting table and I think it will help me ease the brain fog. Having a project and staying focused. Just doing as I please whenever I please
- Scrap book our wedding photos and start taking more picutres. I use to take a lot of pictures and just stopped.
- Get a tattoo. Alwasy been fasinated with them and Im going to save for it and get it. I deserve it.
Well I think this is a good enough start for now. We will see where all this decides to go.
Goodnight World.